You were a strong kid. / Chris Connell (None)
Last year I attended the AYA program and about two weeks in my hands went straight black. I don't know what was wrong with them but I had cracks up and down my fingers and they were constantly draining clear fluid and bleeding. Anytime I moved them, which was often, the pain was unbearable.
I told the staff members I thought my hands were infected and that I couldn't move them without alot of pain. They brushed me off and told me that I'll be fine. Everyone has that at first. Every other kid there commented on how bad my hands were and that they had never had that.
That week I did some very stupid things to get out of the program, but I didn't know what else to do. I was scared, they were asking me to do things I wasn't physically capable of and I was to the point where I could hardly use my hands. I couldn't take all that... I cried basically ever night because of how badly my hands hurt, and how scared I was. They never took me seriously.
December 4th I returned home after a few months stay in DYC.
I don't remember when it was exactly, but my mom came downstairs one morning and told me somebody had died at AYA. Even though I didn't know Caleb I cried (which is something I don't do often) for him. For a long time I thought about writing letters to DHS and other places involved in the investigation to tell them what I had gone through at AYA. They had neglected me just like they neglected Caleb.
These past few days I've been thinking about how Caleb stayed in AYA and tried even though he was dying. He didn't deserve that at all... the staff at AYA should have listened to him and although I don't know what the outcome of the investigation was I would hope that AYA was shutdown and all staff members present with Caleb were criminally charged. It was up to them to take care of him, and to help him if there was something wrong. Not to brush him off and let him die.
My deepest condolences to Caleb's family. My heart really does go out to you.
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